Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Treasured memory

Hi Guys! Got some time off from writing again. I'm still recovering from a very painful heartbreak. I thought of erasing this blog because this was my online diary /scrapbook of our time together and seeing past posts and his face is torture but even though things ended between me and Bee I still treasure all of the memories we've shared and I really loved him with all my heart. I was not a perfect girlfriend and I admit that I hurt him with unloving words and actions but nevertheless I still love him and it hurts that he doesn't feel the same anymore. That loving me was more of an obligation. I may erase all of our pictures and every bit of memory I have but I can't deny the fact that he was once part of my life. With this, I won't be deleting this blog and of course my posts have lots of info about restaurants and stuff. Not because I refuse to move on but accepting the fact that he was a huge influence in my life. I'm still recovering and I may be at my darkest hour but I'm sure that someday I'll love again and that all bitterness will be gone permanently. At God's perfect time I'll be able to love again. Love doesn't just mean being in a relationship, it may be loving of oneself and being ready to share that love with others.